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| ".. do you really think there is only one mate .."
".. as a matter of fact, i do .."
".. well then how can you be certain to find them? and if you do find them, are they really the one for you or do you only think they are? and what happens if the person you're supposed to be with never appears, or, she does, but you're too distracted to notice? .."
".. you learn to pay attention .."
".. then let's say god puts two people on earth and they are lucky enough to find one another .. but one of them gets hit by lightning .. well then what? is that it? or, perchance you meet someone new and marry all over again .. is that the lady you're supposed to be with or was it the first? .. and if so, when the two of them were walking side by side were they both the one for you and you just happened to meet the first one first or, was the second one supposed to be first? .. and is everything just chance or are some things meant to be? .."
".. you cannot leave everything to fate boy, she's got a lot to do .. sometimes you must give her a hand .."
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| ".. my dad always told me, flowers means 'im sorry' and chocolates mean 'i love you' .... "
49 kgs babyy ! one more and i am down to my perfect weight yeeeeeehawww !!!
on another note: feeling shattered over mr big, i just dont understand how he could do this to me ?!
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| ".. the only thing really that is left to do is forgive and forget .. i want to forgive you, and i want to forget you .."
weekend was tragic, EPICALLY tragic ..
its night like those that makes you wanna crawl away & die ...
an irresponsible act of alcohol consumption led to awful and just tragic events ..
too embarrassing to even go there right now lols
that irresponsible act led to one good thing though ..
i saw mr. big on sunday .. we went out cruising to the beach, and got a nice lil tan with that :)
i was afraid it was gonna be awkward, but not at all ... it was just like two friends going out for some ice cream on a hot sunny day :) i did come to the conclusion that i am not over him though, and no matter how hard i try to forget, it wont disappear ...... but i dont feel pain anymore, i just want the best for him and that's all.
i dont know whether this new found friendship would lead to anywhere .. or just nowhere .. but all i know is having him in my life, is better than not having him at all :)
assessments assessments, i will be bombarded with them for the next few weeks, so say goodbye to social life and say hello to more blog entries ... god knows that's all i do when i am in my procrastination mode.
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| ".. first of all, homeboy is not cute .. i dont know what you're all into .. i can see ribs .. i like a little meat on my man .."
he told me to make him a mixtape of all the songs that remind me of him, sadly enough i didnt get the chance to give it to him.. but here's the tracklist:
● trey songz - i cant help but wait
● rihanna ft. ne-yo - hate how much i love you
● keisha cole - fallin out
● one republic - stop and stare
● lil crazed - invisible thoughts
● george nozuka - starcrossed lovers
● katy perry - thinking of you
● kate heidke miller - the last day on earth
● jojo - wrong man for the job
● jojo - keep forgetting (to forget about you)
● black eyed peas - meet me halfway
● the dream - i cant wait to hate you
● chrischan ft. t.i. - you had it all
● jesse mccartney - just so you know
● c-skippah - since you left
● mariah carey - i stay in love with you
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| "... but it's so frustrating because i broke up with him cuz i was sick of crying every day and fighting .. i didn't wanna cry anymore but now i'm crying because he's not here to make me stop ..."
i am jealous ..
it seems so unfair that everyone is buying all these new stuff and i havent bought anything for myself in such a long time .. ive been saving money and paying off my melb trip, sensation ticket, fmf ticket and now good vibes ticket .. its just not fair at all ... i cannot wwait till i pay off these tickets so i can finnally start shopping for myself ..
all work and no play makes bee very gay.
im working all weekend, if not i'll be working on my assesments .. this is the part i hate.
i hate having to worry about assesments, i hate being put under that kinda pressure .. yes, yes it is all a part of life growing up and that whole sha-bam but you know what? ... doesnt mean i have to like it lols
me & fat boy are having an assessment day on sunday and monday .. let's just hope we actually finish off something during that time ..
im having a very bad week, i have two pimples on my face the size of a pea (no joke) .. it hurts everytime i touch it .. i dont wanna go anywhere, ive dabbed so much foundation and concealer on it .. but that just made me look like an even more tool, grah hate life here.
i still miss him like hell, it wont go away and i dont know what else to do ...
i feel like there's no one i can talk to about this, about what im feeling inside ..
i think i've become this person who doesnt want to share anything to anyone anymore ..
& it makes me wonder, when i have becme this closed up person ..... ?
......... i know the longer i keep things shut, the sooner i'll probably explode ..
but its just how i am now, i'd rather talk about anything else other than whats really going inside...
when will this finally stop ..... ?
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